A moment to remember...31 May

Well.. jitsuwa boku.. kekekeh.. suddenly want to write that..huhu.. well 31 May.. is a date that is special to me.. it hapen to be since most important scene of my life happen on this day, starting from 2006.

2006
~Got broke up with my love one.. its my decision though ~ Baka me at that time.. its "the thing to be regret but not to be upset ne" modified quote from my fic~omo~ i did remember the date we broke up~

2007
~ oh no specific incident.. it happen to be some one birthday~ ho yeah.. as for today

~誕生日おっ目で問う～
~Happy Birthday~
Selamat Ulang Tahun~
to
Nurhazwani Binti Mohd Zain
Zakiah Ainul Kamal @ ~ZaXiah Junsu~

2008
~ Precious moment where i fall for KAT-TUN specifically on Ueda Tatsuya~ The story begins in 2008 ... but not actually remember what day because didn't expect it gonna bring me crazy till like this..hehe~

It start about in May..

That day, i was studying in my friend room...F.Y.I previously I was Korean Craze..So, i have lots of lots Korean Song.. I can say that most of the drama that i've watch i'll make sure that i'va the OST without bothering bout the singer ^^ *cruel me ne~*

On that day..We was sharing a pair of earphone , one side each hearing to my Korean Playlist in my phone..When it come to "Memories" an OST from " Yu-Hee the Witch" ..Suddenly, yuii-ichee Said, "Well this song is more a like....urm.. What it is..Urm... lynn-kun (yuii-ichee roomate)..!! What is that song u used to play this song, Why dont you play it.."
~Then, she play...

Note** the script suppose to be in malay n i've translate it and until today still cant figure out how does the two song related in term of music notes..


~ Waa...nice piano note...Lovely...really fall in love at a first sight.. huhu..no first sight actually.... it is first time hearing.. Plus, I'm that kind who really and easily attracted to Piano n Violin instrument....They are lovely....even they are not alive, they seems like understand me....giving me the true feeling.....Without hearing all the song (just the piano part)..... Bluetooth please!! Hehe~ Got it..!! Thank You...

Ooo.. I see.. "Love in snow"..Urm..Lovely..Starting from that point.. My Music playlist was filled with only one song.. There is just one and only one song "Love in Snow".... Repeating the piano part without hearing the rest..Lovely..Well after about five times I start being tired to repeat as i have to stop...play...stop...play... Then, i was thinking..why dont give a chance to the song and hear whole song as it comes together~

**Setsunakunaru kaerimichi..................Yamu hazuno nai yuki wo?......lalala la........**
For a week that is the only song that I hear every single day n every single time i was with my phone..I'm telling this for serious..no lies... Several day after that, lynn-kun shows me the singer picture..



**it was exactly this is the 1st pic of tatchan that i've seen

Is it? Well, of course no comment bout that..What was his name..? He is Ueda..Ueda Tatsuya..n he wrote by himself that song..hurmm~~~*no comment at that time*

__________THIS IS THE STARTING POINT_________

Since that i did really dont know how i could really like him SOO MUCH.. Well he is Cute.. Sweet..Adorable..Kawaii ne...Suddenly, one day, lynn-kun says.. He is KAT-T'U'N..Standing as "U"......What?! ..I've tought he is just Ueda and Ueda is Ueda Tatsuya.....(**note: sorry for this statment) Well....Start to know KAT-TUN..They are GREAT....Combination of different personalities but still can stand n being ONE.........Then, lynn-kun start to tell story about Ueda Tatsuya....KAT-TUN....JOHNNY's (NEWS, Hey!Say!JUMP!, Kanjani 8.....included Ya-Ya-yah)

The 1st KAT-TUN song that I've heard is DUES.. DUES was release a few weeks before i got to know KAT-TUN n in comes with Ueda - Ai no Hana.. another hitz of piano ^^...

I can say that KAT-TUN hitz me in one shot. and its really takes time for me to get know each of them.. till now I still cant called myself as true fans as there is so much thing that I dunno bout them.. Still have to study bout this..

The moment that i've become obses with KAT-TUN happen drastically n unconciously..Of course i've to thanks to my deary friends lynn-kun for letting me know KAT-TUN..
I've start to collect friends by net who is fans of KAT-TUN.. Starting from poll voting for JE boys in poprainbow, i've start to be active there and get to know Eastyarn,farah_ichigo,yuna,and kazuzati and some more . The first and the last fan meetup that i've been up until now is at the poprainbow anniversary event last year..hehe, i remember the date as i declare it my anniversary with KAT-TUN too. 31 MAY after all~ I remember that i've meet isyan n yuna there.. other? sorry.. cant remember...

now here i am...

KAT-TUN is a group of member that is just nice to stand as 6...
It is just like a rainbow that cant lose one of its colour and no need extra colour..
The 6 voices is just good as fruit with different taste but nice to be eat together or separately. (**humor : just like rojak...^^)
KAT-TUN will not be KAT-TUN without K.A.T.T.U.N
Every 6 of them have their own strength an attraction..
KAT-TUN forever... Lets Spread their wings and make it world wide...
Loving KAT-TUN, no regret~~
KAT-TUN..We exist in six~

2009
I'm having my 1st KAT-TUN anniversary.. luckily it was on fan meetup.. i really enjoy that moment.. but then it was my 1st and last one.. hope to make another meet up soon.. Hey girls, i really want to have KAT-TUN fangirling day.. ^^

2010
Yatta this year.. hehe.. i found out that i have lots of idea this year to write a fic.. so, ive start one as you can see i already post it before.. unfortunately i dont have anyone to celebrate my anniversary with KAT-TUN here.. so i made a bunch of wallies n already post in on my Lj.. hehe.. yatta~ Its a beautiful beautiful beautiful days~~ "quote from Heart Beat by KAT-TUN~"

Current Music : Heart Beat
Current Mood : Hyper

A moment to remember~

My First FanFic.. Yatta~
**directly copied from LJ~
~ho yeah~
warning : love between boys
no emoji tough

Title: A Moment to Remember.
Pairing: Akanishi Jin X Kamensahi Kazuya, Akanishi Jin X Ueda Tatsuya
Rating: PG
Summary: It’s a story between Kazuya and Jin. A sudden meeting between Jin and Kazuya makes them fall in love. But fate decide to be cruel and Kazuya have to leave Jin
Author Notes: Well basically this is my first fanfic. It’s kind of short and I do have plan on emerging the story at several part. Please enjoy. Comments are welcomed~


*BANNGGG!!!*A car hit a wall
*PRANGG!!!!*A glass slips from a hand
Two accidents at one time. It is destiny~

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It’s raining softly on the outside. Kazuya is standing at the window, viewing the early spring. Seeing such view make him remember what happen on last spring. It’s the only thing to be regret but not to be upset. The scent of sakura from the early spring is better with a mist from the rain. It is so refreshing. Jin is lying on the bed. What will happen to him? It’s a question which he always thinks about but still, no answer will come. It has been a month already. Kazuya had close up the window when the rain starts to pour heavily. So heavy like his heart do ever since the incident

"Wake up soon~ Onegai~ I'll be waiting,” he whispers at Jin's ears and start to take a leave. He then pulls up Jin blanket up to the chest. It’s getting colder. It has been hours since he arrives this morning.

"Where am I?" "Where am I?"suddenly a voice break the silence.

In a shock he turns around. It’s Jin. He is waking up. Seeing that, Kazuya face seems more comfortable. He can’t stop from smiling. He is so happy and glad that Jin finally wakes up after a month in coma. He was so afraid before when the doctor say that Jin will be in a coma for an unknown amount of time. A time that out of the medical power to predict. He makes a move to Jin and holds his hand. He kiss Jin hands with tears on his face~

“You just wake up. No need to stress yourself, my dear. I’ll call the doctor~” says Kazuya. He then put Jin’s hand properly on his body and makes a move towards the doctor room. With the long sleeve of his t-shirt, he wipes out his tears hoping Jin would not notice that.

“Ne, at least let me know before you go, who am I to you?” Jin asked with a nervous expression.

Kazuya have no definite answer for that. He makes his move to the doctor room ignoring Jin question.

~**~**~**~**~**~**~*Last year*~**~**~**~**~**~**

SPLASH!!!!~~~~

A coffee got onto Jin cloth. It was all black on his white coat.

“What the heck are you doing Sir? Didn’t you see where are you going?” screamed Jin without looking to the person face, busy wiping off the coffee stain.

“It’s Kazuya...Kazuya Kamenashi...My name...I am really sorry Sir... I didn’t see you, I mean it. As I turn you already at...m...my...bba…c...k…” Says Kazuya politely but shaking a little. Scared. It was shocking for him to. He was at the coffee machine and suddenly when he turns after getting his coffee he bumped into a running man. Jin lifts his head up. He is stunned... So pretty... The hair is shining, the cute puppy eyes, well-shaped nose, fair skin, and the lips... *chuP~* he kissed it... It’s a sexy lips... so nice to be kissed…unconsciously. He falls for Kazuya sweet looking.

“You are hardly locked by me” whisper Jin to Kazuya ears after the short, sudden kiss. He does that without a reason other than the fact that he definitely has fallen for Kazuya. He can’t move his eye from Kazuya face and he totally forget about the host club meeting

“Your number please?~” ask Jin while handing in his phone to Kazuya.

Kazuya freeze and totally ignores Jin who stared at him since the start of their encounter. His eyes were open wide, trying to understand what happen just now. Taking a slow step while talking to himself. Questions are showering his mind. He even ignores the people he bumps on his walk.

“What just happen? Where am I going? Why I’m holding this empty coffee cup? Why am I losing my mind? Aaaa~ I've just been kissed…WHAT??!! KISS??!! (T_T) my first kiss~ and it’s with him…” *BANGG!!* He hit the wall

“Obviously this was not a dream” and he faints

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“Aaa~~ SO BRIGHT!!” where am I?” Ask Kazuya as soon as he opens his eyes. Blinking non-stops as the eyes are trying to adjust to the bright light. His eyes are wide open, scanning throughout the space until his eyes suddenly stop on Jin’s figure. It’s definitely not his place but Jin. He did not have a wide living room like this. A living room with a modern concept. The leather couch that he was laying on is facing toward the bar where Jin was. Jin is walking towards Kazuya. He hands in the mug of drink that he prepared before to Kazuya and sit in front him on the table. His eyes never stop from looking at Kazuya since their first encounter. Except during the moment when he piggy back Kazuya from the road side before. “Its hot-choco” says Jin. Kazuya who is currently taking a gulp of it to reduce his nerves...*spurrr* IT’S HOT!! Unfortunately... It’s on Jin’s face... “It’s okay. I should get used to it now,” says Jin while taking his move to the toilet~

~_~_~_~_~_ that’s how they met_~_~_~_~_~_~

Their LOVE grows gradually… Kazuya can’t deny that he really got locked by Jin on the first kiss. They date and enjoy their time together well. They went to amusement parks, watched movies, having romantic dinners and now they are having their weekend picnic like they always do. They are lying under the sakura tree having a nice view of spring.

“Jin, I need to tell you something” says Kazuya while changing his view from Jin face to the lake in front of them “I...I... I need to leave.”

“Leave?? Where?? Do you have any other appointment today?” replied Jin with his eyes on Kazuya back.

“Jin, I mean... a break up” says Kazuya nervously.

“You are kidding right, Kazu? It’s not a thing to be joked about, so stop it” replied Jin nicely while pinching Kazu's chubby cheek.

Kazu ~ it just thing that make Jin differ from others... only him called Kazuya, Kazu. Others prefer to call his first name or just Kame.

“I’m not. I’m serious, our time is over” replied Kazuya in serious voice. He stands up leaving Jin lying alone on the mat.

“SO, you are? And why is that so?!” Jin starts to get mad but still tries to be patient. He knows that Kazuya is serious whenever he did not deny it. His heart falls into pieces just like sakura petals that scattered from the tree as the wind blow.

“Because I said so” replied Kazuya. He had no specific answer for it. If he says that he does not love Jin, it would be a lie. But he really needs to break up with Jin. They start to argue about breaking up. Kazuya demands for a break up but Jin keep insisting to be together. He loves Kazuya so much. They fight until Jin stop from being patient. He suddenly screams out.

“FINE!! You may leave as you wish... But remember… I love you” his voice is getting lowered at the end of his word. He can’t believe that their relationship has already come to an end. He loves Kazuya, but Kazuya leave him no choice. Even if he insists to keep the relationship going but the other side insists to end it, he knew it would not work. He stands up and faces Kazuya. Their eyes met. He then gives Kazuya a final kiss. Kazuya didn’t push him away as he also needs it for himself. They stay in the position for a moment. The moment to be remembered .The younger one takes his leave after the final kiss. Jin reaches out his hand but his leg was numb. The only thing that he can reach is the falling of sakura petals. It’s such a sweet view for a bitter day.

For Kazuya, there are no tears shed since he planned for it. He is tired of crying already. It is the right thing for him to do. Kazuya's twin need him more because he dying over a severe liver disease which needs a sudden transplant from him. The chance for the surgery to succeed is only 20%. For a normal people the chance of surviving is higher but for him with his weak heart, it is lower. But only his liver can save his twin because they are twins after all. His organ definitely will fit well. ‘I’m sorry Jin, but I love you too. Sooner or later I still will be leaving you.

~~~~Sometimes even there is love from both sides, break ups still can happen~~~~~

~+~+~+~+~Jin start his life without Kazuya~+~+~+~+~

His first month is totally full of suffering. Since he broke up, he is always scared to get back home. For him Kazu's shadow is always there. Kazu, who cooked, cleaned, showered... Ah! I should get rid of it! He only gets home only when it is almost midnight and need to sleep. He spends most of his free time sitting at a corner in a café facing a park. He likes the view. The spring view is always calm and lovely even it almost the end. He realizes that Kazu will never return. He called Kazu a few times before but it goes straight to the voicemail. He should really move on. He should stop the tears.

3 months passed and Jin feels much better. Plus, a new person is getting into his life. He bumped into that person last few days. On his way home suddenly that person gave him flowers saying “Flowers always carry someone word of love”... This happen continuously for a week with different quotes. That person always gives him a cheerful look. On the eighth-day, Jin was expecting for him to come again but he did not come. He had already prepared ‘something’ in return for the flowers but that person still didn't appear. Jin really wonders where has he gone to and start to search around until he sees him playing happily with the kids in the park. Such a happy go lucky boy. Jin keeps watching him until the other notice him. Then he smiles to Jin before his smiley expression turn into a shocked expression. He runs toward Jin. “I’m sorry, I totally forget it is about time you finish your work” says Ueda, the boy... “It’s okay. Today, it’s my turn” says Jin with the quote “would you be the one” and Ueda is extremely happy. It is something that he always wanted to happen. He had been watching Jin at the café since Jin starts appearing. The same café that Jin had always been after the break up. Since that, he had already fall in love with him. As for Jin he thought he should try to love someone else in a way to forget Kazu. Kazu will never return. He believes that.

On the other hand, Kazuya's condition is getting better. It’s been three months after the surgery. It's kind of shocking since he and his twin is safe. He is doing well in his therapy and preparing himself to meet Jin. He misses him so much. He know that he is suppose to tell Jin the truth but he already prepared himself to die and he just want Jin to lose himself earlier before he truly did lose him forever. But, since he was safe, he was sure that Jin will accept his reason and of course he knows he will suffer with Jin nagging him for not telling the truth. ^^

However... at the moment he returns he saw Jin is laughing happily with someone else. He cries alone. He realizes it was his mistake at first to break up. But he also considers the boy's feeling. He know if he return to Jin he will definitely get Jin back because he still got Jin's voice mail saying how he miss Kazuya until yesterday. But he doesn’t want to. His sympathy toward Jin's new lover is higher. Kazuya imagines that if he were in Jin’s new lover’s place, it must be painful for him to lose someone he loves. Jin has accepted the boy means Jin has already forgotten him. The voice mail means nothing. It is just Jin who was still want to feels the sweet memories between them. As for Kazuya, it's already fated that between him and Jin is truly over. Time will pass and Jin will totally forget him. He takes his leave in tears. But the tears won’t fade his love towards Jin.

~~~A perfect summer day is when the sun is shining, the breeze is blowing, the birds are singing but it will more perfect with you~~~

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Kazuya is busy cleaning the broken glass. It slipped from his hand when he is enjoying his morning view. He like the spring view. It reminds him to his sweet memory. He even left the window wide open letting all the flying petals messing up his room. Suddenly, he got a call from the hospital. It’s a call saying that the hospital is out of worker since a huge accident has occurred and his place is so far from the town. Since he had registered to be a volunteer, it his job to go. As he reaches the hospital an ambulance arrives. So, he was immediately assigned to take care of the newly arrived person. He is so shocked when he realized that the person he needs to take care of is... JIN. He was informed that Jin is on his way to work outside of town. All his identity was ruined in the accident and Jin is very lucky to be alive. Kazuya want to contact his lover but he absolutely knows nothing about the other. After the treatment, the doctor let him know that Jin might lose his memory. As Kazuya is the person who is in charge to take care of Jin, the doctor advices him to find the information about Jin so that the hospital can tell Jin when he wakes up. Kazuya had assumed that Jin lose his memory because he seems unable to recognize him. But Kazuya still take care of him. He won’t take the advantage of gaining Jin back. He believes he can do so without even telling the truth. But doing that is not the real Kazuya. He promises to stop seeing Jin and will disappear after Jin recovers fully but he can never stop loving Jin. One thing that he did not know is... Jin had already waked up a day before while Kazuya is having his course. And he doesn’t lose his memory as the doctor predicted. Noticing Kazuya who is taking care of him is a huge surprise and he had to make a decision. He needs time to ensure his feelings. He loves them both. His love towards Kazuya never fade and his love toward Ueda is growing everyday …The moment of having Kazu is too sweet to be forgotten but the loves from Ueda is also too warm to be lost~~

~~~~Love is a game but is not a toy to be play with~~~~

wallies~

*emoji day*

**omo.. too much emoji~ wont fit here~~