examination week wallpaper!!!

after messing up the mind with the note i finally made this... my exam schedule, my Uepi supporting me and the cactus... ark!! CACTUS?? Nande???.... haha... i also dunno why the cactus flower is there... yerp.. thats random.. maybe it just a significant to work hard~~ YES!!! できる!!  Cactus can survive in extreme condition.. so do I~~ OK... ..off for benkyo..... matte minna..~~

Its worth it when you stay in calm

a story to tell...

my name is ILLI EARISSA AIZA... well... admit it at first the "earissa" is a part of my name that keep being play by others since is "EAR".. haha.. well... back then.. during my childhood, when people get mad of me the EAR will be pressed... also the ILLI actually, since its sounds like CHILLI... however it still my name and i'm proud of it...the earissa is kind of unique part of my name.. well... i didn't blame people for mispronounce my name but at least do not misspell... I'm really particular about spelling...its I.L.L.I not illy, ily, ili,... double L, ok?.. if people sees my name for a first time mostly tought it just a name that i figure out my self, well now you guy know the earissa is mine..(**himitsu:earissa is a combination of my parent name ^^)

Its worth it when you stay in calm when people play out your name...because they are just jelous of it.. be proud of ur name because the name is YOU..

i need to pay out my bband bill today... but i misplace the number... struggling all the stuff and i start to lose my patient.. i decide to sit and take a breath..i search through out my phone seeking for my dad number.. but decide to not... i sit and relax n take a big deep breath....1111... celcom service center... there you go.. I'm done... I've got what i want~~

Its worth it when you stay in calm when you lost something or in lost... because the idea only come when you are calm.

being mad to others was a bad idea.. but it cannot be stopped, right... but to keep it inside and analyze it back is the best idea... reflex the things that happen to yourself... put your place in them and try to understand...that avoid a fight... talk about it when you calm.. there is nothing to lose about...like i said before... follow the flow... woooooooowooooooo~~~

Its worth it when you stay in calm when are in mad... because its may avoid you to say unnecessary thing in which you may regret of saying that..people tend to let go everything when they are in mad in which the part that should be avoided to remain the KIZUNA~~

~Friendship need a tight KIZUNA~

65th post!!!

haha... nothing to be proud of the title... just being out of title or should it be hana??
nevermind ..firstly.. jajan!!!!

~is'nt it lovely~

the fact is, this flower really last long... its been about two week ++ since its bloom~ (**this i'snt mine.. its just a token from me to my PA during my trip)....demo ne... nothing can beat this....

 

its sakura... nyiahahaha...SUTEKI!!!!!!

i've done my presentation today... two more to go... i feel like i'm doing it badly but since someone says that i'm doing fine... then it such a relief... haha....next, the PA meeting system for the K.I., I got one more meeting and I'm done!!! yatta... counting-counting-counting-COUNTING!!!! yosh... off for benkyou~~~ ~~~ i guessz~ hurm!!.. hahahahaha!!!!

**sometimes i'm feeling bad coz not buying CUW but smtms i dont... hurmm.. this time isnt mine, i guess... 

**owh... tq dearry PA for the website << the one that offer scholarship for studying in japan... haha... i'm really serious wanna go there soooonnn~~~ NIPPON!! matte kure~~ KAT-TUN mo~~~ hahahahaha.... action beep.... bee..beep..beep...beep..beep....<< action kamen from sinchan... (**i 've told u so, I am random) 

Update!!

hi bloggy-chan!!! hasashiburi!!! fuh...fuh... ngee.. ma... dunno where to start.. hurm... lets KAT-TUN be the first..

Dear KAT-TUN-san...

      Ommedetou!!! the new single gonna release soon.. demo no.. gomen... i decide not to buy at last... ..okane..okene...okane...>>..i miss fangirl but i just dont have time... benkyo is my priority right now n i decide only to fangirl on the sem break... demo ne... for the update by my fanfriend.. i really appreciate that... ..calling and texting minna and a short chat sometimes enough to make me happy.... Aween, Fara, Lynn, Roro and Hani... tq... Kazu Zati mo... huhu... long time no chat huh! ngee~~~ KAT-TUN!!! matte kure!!!.. 3 weeks to go... I miss you guys already ne... GOOD LUCK FOR THE NEW SINGLE!!!! I'm waiting... Change Your WORLD!!! yesh... i can do this... CHANGE YOURWORLD!!!!.. ~ lyric

 

~MY LIFE~

Recently I'm being clueless about my life...what am i in 10 years??? hurmm... well that not the major.. the major is the present... i'm studying yet sometime i'm lost in my own world... i met various type of people... well, if you guys relize, we never satisfied with anyone..... no one is perfect tough.. people cannot stop criticize about others...*hands up* including me... well as for me, i do compalin alot about people... but i'll do it publicly if there is someone did it.. but if no one... well, here i am... in this bloggy.. haha..... actually writing all the complain that i kept about this people here make me feel better... buts thats not the point.. complaining about people need a self reflect... ..deshou?? um... i did this but i'm not sure others do... well, when i talk back about others, yes! i feel relief for a while then i'll do my self evaluation... actually do i do that... am i'm being hated in silence too... well... follow the flow, thats the life rules.. i cant really understand when people like to lighten up the madness.. well... for me.. I HATE THAT PERSON.....just dislike maybe... huhu... but sorry to say... its obvious i'm stepping away from you because, i dont like you because you are so negative, like to add oil to the fire and i'm that time that easy to be influence by people... to avoid me being like that... i had to step away from... you wanna TOUCH.. ..go on... but only KameDa (Kamenashi Kazuya & Ueda Tatsuya) can TOUCH with me (**note: Tatsuya and Kazuya is a character from TOUCH) ... haha... well... evaluate this rule of mine:

"LIVING IN COMMUNITY IS ABOUT FITTING INTO PEOPLE BUT NOT MAKING PEOPLE FIT INTO YOU.... FOLLOW THE FLOW AND KEEP THE POSITIVE THINKING"

well,, the exam is here... and my tanjoume also.. haha... i wonder how it gonna be... HEY.. I'm about to be 20 this year~~~

talking about the exam...the stress is coming.... i hope i can do well in this sem... DEAN LIST, i cant promise but i'll struggle for the 3.00 and above.... not being the negative one it just i dont want to give hope for somthing uncertain..... this SEM subject is CHOOOOO HEAVY!!

**haha.... tracking this onion from facchan blogspot!!

sigh~

Cant help to stop sighing in this two three days... well, today the environment is differ than ever.. suddenly i feel like "am I that mess"...i feel that push it too hard.. maybe it is just me or not... well... should just follow the flow ne~~~ sigh... i do wish to see him in a mad face but just half of it already make me scared...grrr..... super serious ne~ *sigh* thank God coz there still at least a little tiny sweet smile~~ but still YOU ARE SUPER SERIOUS AND THAT REALLY GIVES ME GHOSTBUMP~~ grrrrr~~~~KOWAI deshou!!

huh!

will i ever stop being like this... i hate making people uneasy with me... yet i'm still doing it unconsciously.. just let me know if i'm going overboard... i'll understand it well... it just a part of random me~~~ *BIG SIGH*

I'm such a mess and I'm in mess

Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir Pecha Kucha Mecha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kucha Kachir

and I'm such a mess... sigh... just realize that fact that I'm such a mess to someone. and someone else also..... gomen for being your mess minna~ *bow2* *big sigh*

I'm in mess.. assignment on the row and the worst is final exam... will i able make it through? yes i do! KEEP THE FAITH coz it WILL BE ALRIGHT!! its my harukana yakusoku~~~

**Miss Earissa, plan your life well includes the study, the social and the fangirl~

Messy me! Troublesome me! Emo me!

caution : emo mode without emoji

in the mode of crying in sudden.*sigh*. why i'm so clumsy?why i'm so baka?why do i look like desperate one? why do i hurt people even it is not my intention? the answer is : RANDOM ACTION BY EARISSA.. well, its unbearable.

Firstly i think I've misused the P.A system. well this thing was not suppose to read by the UMK student.. fuh2... no one reading... *praying hardly no one is reading**FUHHHH*... sigh...well..basically I've misused the system by telling the unecessary thing.. sigh... its unbearable since its me... i'm saying what i'm thinking without second thought.. gomen ne P.A.. i can see that u are un comfortable but yet you are enduring it... i'm grateful of that..=) demo ne.. i think i wont meet u again.. suddenly i feel super HAZUKASHIIIIII for being unconscious telling all the unrelated stuff.... ish2.... i know i should stop that.. by writing up what to say i think is the best way so it its short yet worth it ne~ um... i guess we wont meet until next monday..perhaps wednesday.. glimpse is possible but official meeting is not i guess.. i need to wash my brain first before i meet u... argh... SUPER HAZUKASHIIIII... minna tasukete!!!! ~*SIGHING LOUDLY* as i always did... *i hope that my P.A will read this and understand me~.. ne ne... PA.. i know u dissapprove my FB request... haha~~~ *sigh*

a bad feeling come when the peak schedule make me unable to meet my bestie which is i wont met i  the short time.. ah... waiting again.. sigh... to Aliya Dalila Ruslan and Mohd Zulkamal... be back soon.. i miss you both my bestie!!!

Uepi Tanjoume... no celebration, peak week... i'll make belated when i'm free which i dunno when~~ .

LIFE IS TIRING BUT I'M SURVIVING~~ EARISSA IS STRONG!!!