~たったひとつの恋~: 2014

Thursday, September 18, 2014

There you go... my updates in a bulk.. haha.. ^^

Its official~

Yeah.. I choose to jump into the sea

Now i have to work to stay afloat

and now I have to work to cross this sea

Insya-Allah, May all at ease

After being un-employed for quite sometime, I've decided to pursue in master. Applied 3 universities and Alhamdulillah qualified for all. So, I have to choose. The deciding process is a bit tough since a lot of factor to consider. And now its been a week, and I am officially a Master of Science student of Universiti Malaya. Lets thrive and survive.

Still in doubt of the choice but bit by bit it decreasing.

More or less, I believe this is what is written for me,

More or less, I hope this is the right road,

Again....

Yeah.. I choose to jump into the sea

Now i have to work to stay afloat

and now I have to work to cross this sea

Insya-Allah, May all at ease

Handshake~

Bismilahirrahamirrahim~! Ok SpiLL~!!

*no emoji* might be boring might be interesting*

The title has been running inside out of mind since yesterday and I can't help to ignore it. With a bit of doubt whether i should write in the mode of mix language or spending hours to write in fully grammatical error English.. haha ok.. back to the title~

I've been wondering myself about facing this 'handshake'. Is it right is it wrong? Well people will say up to the situation but somehow "Our intent does not justify the means" . But basically I didn't usually face this situation.. So, when someone is putting his hand out to me I'm a bit in doubt and just follow the flow before my mind can process the right or wrong. Honestly, I wish I can preserve more in this. I'm still learning the skill of declining the handshake without hurting anyone pride. Or without dropping others face. But somehow, deep inside me I always hope that more people will be more alert on this. Don't put out your hand if you are the opposite gender of me. Please, it give my mind battle.. hahaha.. Ma.. its quite impossible but I still hope for it.. :P

:: Some people might don't mind since for them it is just a matter of manner.. as for me I do mind

:: Don't put me in the random mode.. its dangerous..

20 facts about me

Bismilahirrahamirrahim~! Ok SpiLL~!!
Yoe.. 20 Facts repost! Haha.. Last few weeks there is somekind of wave about this 20 fact from instagram.. So, i decide to repost is here.. Copypasta from my IG with a little bit more detail

20 fact about me.. Read it or leave it..
1. 'Sakura' lover and been dreaming to spend spring under full blossom tree
2. I love baking and cooking but hate to do the cleaning.. Hahaha..
3. Love the taste of coffee but my body just can't tolerate it.. Huhu
4. Scared of thunder, lightning, ghost and darkness. I'll surely cry and froze if I'm alone
5. Thriller and ghost story is a big NO a bit scaredy-cat on this
6. Tak reti melintas jalan but currently learning because of the new routine
7. I'm fine with bugs and insects except caterpillar and I'll get itchy just by looking at them
8. Hate green peas in a form of peas since i had enough of it taste
9. A Ribena lover especially RIBENA STRAWBERRY.. nyummeh~!
10. Didn't drink soya due to stomach intolerance but other soya product is fine.. huhu
11. I listen to every kind of music genre i mean everything~
12. Love violin and piano and still dreaming to learn it and will make it true
13. I have 'subconscious tears' issue (T_T)
14. Earissa is a part of my real name and it a part where most people mispronounce it *sigh*
15. Been dreaming to do extreme sports even i am 'gayat' haha
16. I 'speak out loud' its loud voice and loud mind
17. Novel reader where imagination goes wild
18. Short term memory and selected memory issue since i remembering and forgetting occasionally
19. A lazy blogger that update in a bulk and i really do..
20. Am a complicated person ... *smirk*

Wedding and Friends~

Bismilahirrahamirrahim~! Ok SpiLL~!!

Its the age. Its the moment. Its the readiness and it is what fated.

Since last few month, I can say that there is non-stop of wedding invitation and even more now since its school holiday. I wish that I can attend all but of course it is impossible due to the financial and location issue. But somehow, for those that I've miss, I'm glad that I'm able to see the update and hashtags through facebook and even instagram. Frankly, there is even a video thats touch me. Overwhelm by this feeling also and of course keep me wondering when it will be my turn.

Reminiscing my sister solemnization where it is my very first time listening to "khutbah nikah" and everytime it touch me inside. All I can say, it is not my time. My time haven't arrive yet. Haven't met the one doesn't mean that there is no one. That's what I've believe at least to keeping me in a positive way. Somehow, Selamat Pengatin Baru to all newly wed friend. Keep loving each other till Jannah.. Insya-Allah.. Allah bless.

May Allah bless for you (your spouse) and bless you, and may He unite both of you in goodness..

-amin-

Friend.. How would you describe them? or who is them? and as for me when know the name and i know and ever meet that person then we are friend right? I have a very long list friend, and even a bunch of good friend and of course a lump of besties. Even we are besties it not not necessary to keep texting and alerting each other. but it is just enough to always be noted that we are not standing alone.. Frankly, I'm feeling 2014 is a year of blast.. After few years leaving school I finally manage meeting one by one of my school-mate, my childhood mate and even university fella that well... I know it only just a year apart but we are missing each other like crazy.. Yeah! Maa.. this post is getting long.. lets move to the next part...*wink*

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Footwear~!

There is moment where life seems so mean.. But u just have to push aside and keep on walking ahead..

Bismilahirrahamirrahim~! Ok SpiLL~!!

Footwear.. shoe-sneaker-heel-wedges-flat-sandal-flipper-slipper~! Woa.. Blame the facebook timeline for it.. it seems like recently too much footwear advertisement so.... it is so IRRESISTIBLE~!! Emoticons

Yaaa..... Still for the time being just able to look and mark the favorite and be patient.. fufufu

.. can't wait to be a salarygirl to start the collection... weehooo~!! Emoticons

cr : ShoeShop.my

:: Personally I love the black pink one..

cr : Kasut Online

and soo much more~ hehe

Friday, May 30, 2014

Copy paste~

"And we have both agreed that if it is meant to be, it will be. we are realistic and practical people but romantics at heart. now that's pure irony. we've been single for our entire lives and choose to stay that way for now because there are important things to think about. our futures for example."

-Martina-

She is my gossip girl and it just happen then i was blog walking just now and come to this, I couldn't help to agree with her much on this and shared this here...

:: We rarely talk to each other, but we always miss each other..

:: Safe trip to Sabah my dear.. and take care... =)

Its my fandom and its my hapiness

Eventhough i can separate this post into two, but i'm tooo lazy.. huehehe..

Bismillahirahmanirrahim.. SPiLL~!

Well KAT-TUN release DVD Countdown, release album and will release single and will do concert and i cant afford.. Ok.. that is a FRUST voice okey.. haha.. I might be Die Hard Fan.. and might be not.. I pick what i like and what I don't like.. I can't say that i love all their song.. I just love most of them and maybe because like their combi of voice is kinda familiar and suit me well.. perhaps.. or whatever it is they are still awesome in four!

Mathama Ghandi says that

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.

Frankly, that is how i feel right now.. even there is still bump and dark hole, i believe that i'll make it through. Dekiru! Shinjiru!

:: Originally, I don't have any idea what to give him on our first meeting but Versus come like a pop.. haha... Well, basically that all i can afford for now.. :)

:: Seems like I'm the one with little memory space of school.. haha.. and I'm kinda just realize that I used to be short.. -_-"

:: Oh... forget to mention, I see someone playing asalato while walking back few days ago but he stop when he walk beside me... fufufu.. i wish him play.. and actually 50% feeling of stopping him so that he can play and i can watch it for real...haha.. :P

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

It’s him… definately him~

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....
OK! SPiLL~~

Firstly…

and shu shuuu cobweb..

… I never thought that I will ever update my blog before I get a job... Emoticons

or even before I achieve anything on my wish list... But now, here I am... in anxiety Emoticons

and full of anticipation...

oh... such an old story… However, let this become the opening~

Barely manage to find this image.. Exactly the same look but not the same thing. I've lost the real thing and it such a regret... Here is the story that I barely remember since I was 9 years old that time. I have a friend that live on the exact same road and studying at the exact same class… and yes, we was 9. The memory is fading Emoticons

but I still can remember some of it where we play together at his house (if I’m not mistaken) and enjoying the class… I also barely remember his house layout.. Emoticons

.. that so out of reach thou… (and there is some memory of his mom, about how his mom telling us that she accidentally hit a cat that sneaking behind the tire of their car)… Emoticons

... and I believe there is so much more that we did together…
The separation happen at the end of standard 3…That year we sit the PTS together and he had to move following his family and with my teeny tiny little brain I believe that he move oversea.. and that doll girl holding cake is the exactly the look of his first and last present for me..

..oh… how time passed by… every time I have a free time I seriously Google for his name.. haha.. funny isn't it? I don’t know why, but ever since I get to know this technology thingy and “grow this old” I have that feeling to find him.. like seriously, I don’t know why… but it just happen… maybe because he is very the best buddy that leave his memories tightly inside my mind.. well who knows..

Amazingly, it so like dream come true..

He found me.. haha.. through this blog… like seriously..

“奇跡だね？”

..ma… maybe…. Haha… I, seriously rarely updating my blog since my final year.. it just happen that me being lazy after all.. and nothing much to spill… Last year… at the very last day of the year… the very-very 31^st December 2013, I feel like updating as I was hoping 2014 will seriously open the new sheet of my life… laying out all my wishlist hope and dream… before doing that I just like strolling back through the previous post, reminiscing and self-evaluation on how much I grow, how good and how bad I've become and then . . . . . . . . . . . . . this little comment came to my eye... it was ages before.. almost like a year and more before… I was like,

... should I reply? Should I not? Who is this person? When ‘this person’ mention my very old school I can help but being excited and curios… but I still wonder, is it too late, or very late… but still I just put my reply with a hope that ‘this person’ will read…

and all the curiosity have come to the end… to the very end this morning… its him… its definitely him.. and he never move oversea actually... I wonder where did I get that idea.. haha…

There is a lot of thing floating in my mind… Lots of wondering and lots of imagination… Yes, we were 9 back then but we are 24 right now… so much thing have change... the physical… did he grow tall? or short? or skinny? or chubby?…

... oh.. I wonder… how does his minded sounds like? …

... oh.. I wonder… haha… since I did grow much being chubby and plumpy ever… that’s gonna surprise him I guess.. haha… what is his music passion? …

... oh I wonder this too… well much about me can be figure out through this blog… the like and the dislike.. the passion and even the picture but it sooo like blank sheet about him other that our 9 years old memory.. can’t wait to catch up with this old friend… I wish we will have our live conversation soon..