Konkatsu@Marriage Hunt~

OMO...Its it Tatsuya debut drama.. kyargh... He is so damn kawaii in that.. even he had that simple role in that drama, everytime he is out it just to cute~ ^^

**buying the DVD just because its Ueda debut drama.. hehe
**watching sleepy tatsu make me want to sleep~ oyasumi~~ zzzzz

Well.. not the main point of writing..Well, i went to mu cussie wedding yesterday...guess what got that unofficial role~ huhu.. talking about wedding there is such ton of story.. i miss out my best cussie wedding that i regret... i also used to be "pengapit" that appointed on the spot (my scarf not even been iron that day..poor my cussie get me on that role) and yesterday, i am bride food decorator...adoyay...sitting for a long time and dealing with obachan is tiring~
**lazy mode to upload the pic.. huhu..lazy day~

todays note:: no emoji.. lazy to put one~
:: hurt my back...arh.. so stiff.. really doesnot loke like me~
:: no current music or mood coz have non~

Life is s such a bittersweet to live in

Its been a while since i'm writing anything here..dunno where to start the story actually.. things do happen...

Yesterday, i went shopping with my mom after sending my sis to the terminal. Well, the happy thing is i get so Tatsu like outfit.. of course its bigger than tatsu size since he was that *slim* hehe~

I've been admiring his out fit since i know him.. well u can say its girly but its not.. i prefer a sweater with a hood because i like putting on the hood.. ever since i dont really care how others would appoint me becoz i just like it.. just like my Tatsuya.. most of his cloth with a hood.. remembering about one episode of CKT where there is no plan of going anywhere and he was paired to Akanishi, he where double hood cloth..soooo cannot undestand.. oh~ my Tatsu.. I'm so out of question to you.. hehe..

The bad thing is.. got a short fever.. Alhamdullilah.. todays i'm fine... but one thing that i really wonder..why do i fall sick easily and why do i cure easily.. adoyay... hope i'll be fine... tired of being sick inside and out.. talking about sick inside.. well there are such thing that i really dont understand.. its him.. why.. why.. and why.. i keep bragging up bout him.. no specific reason but i absolutely cannot understand.. one weeks stayed at hope i finally hanging out with my friend.. we are having ABC at so usually place that we used to hangout before since high school.. my friend invite him and he come.. it soo make me nervous.. kinchoushimashta~ adoyay~.. he is chatting with her and i froze.. but suddenly he talk to be.. so well act.. but in a same time it shows that we are fine.. so, we are fine rite.. but after a few days, i ask him out... well i dont relly know whether it is my fault or his.. i text his MAX number since i dont have his CEL number... the report said delivered, but no reply..*sigh* well purposely or not only he got the answer.. i'll be fine if u are fine.. dont make me keep bragging bout you my dear.. it brings unwanted memory.. hehe...

Well.. my friend keep asking me whether i do have bf or someone did i like.. well, the answer...of course No.. as for me i have the experience enough.. Don't fell like want to attract or attracted to some one.. lets thing happen naturally.. for both my ex, thanks for the sweet.. ah.. saying about it i remember...along the time that i've couple twice, i never have a date.. believe it or not.. hehe.. as for now i still can hold on my Ueda Tatsuya as my lover...(even people denied said it fantasy on but i'm satisfied).. no lies seing he singing happily can make me smile.. such a chwetty pie ne~ TATSUYA, aishiteru YO~~~


I believe what happen to me rite now is absolutely my fault... sorry for being not matured before.. something that i regret is losing you.. but i dont regret losing you because it teach me a lot.. when it come to feeling it is something that cannot be measure... the hate can become a love and a love can be a hate gradually.. For people who LOVE and used to LOVE me, thank you for loving SILLY, IMMATURED and SHORT THINKER as ME~

Quote: Thanks for the sweet sorry for the bitter...Life is s such a bittersweet to live in.

ah.. currently addicted to chibi.. cho kawaii.. felling like to squeeezzzzzz~~~

<--kame-chan and tat-chan chibi from DUES outfit..

Hell,NO by KAT-TUN

Hell no daaaaahm... ready? don't game
Do or die hikaru xxxx xxxxx gold chain
No name 44 juudan verse 1

Hell no!Can't believe
Waka chi ae zu kurikaesu tabi
Always so confused
Hell no!Black or white
Shirokuro tsukeru tameni
Kizutsu keau
Battle for the truth

Why?Nikushimi no naka
Cry?Sama you ai ni
Lie?Mada kizukazu ayamachi kasane
Don't know how to break it
Blahh blahh blahhhh... ie yo hell no

Just one spark will bring the fear
And... isshokusokuhatsu no yoru
Nothing can kill the way to love
(Konomama hike ru hodo I'm not adult)
Just one trigger can start a war
And... 'shoudou'gekijou' uzumaki ita
No one can lose the faith in love
(Susumu michi ga chigau naraba fight)
Negai hakanaki ai wa
They make it harder

Shake da **** baby dance
Do or die hajiku xxxx xxxx gold chain
No name 44 juudan verse 2

Hell no!Can't be real
Atoni hike zu furue ru yubi wa
Under no control
Hell no! more sorrow
Rensa suru kanashimi ni
Nomikomareru
Struggle with your sin

Why?Hitsuyou nano wa
Cry?Shinji au koto
Lie?Soredemomada nagare ru namida
Don't know how to take it
Blah blahh blahhhh... hajiku my mind

Keep in your heart, no matter what, and... kie kakeru ai
Nothing can kill the one you love real fighter ha? break it down ha?
Deep inside you, the pain remains and... itami kizama rete
No one can choose the end of life egoist, it is narcist
Negai todoka nu koe wa they make it harder

Why? itsuka waka rusa
Cry? munashii dakeno
Lie? arasoi yori taisetsu na koto
One day you will find it

(Grown in da dark side of life we're just da opposite
Man, ya a greenhorn 4 me, everyday's a battle
Life's just a battle sorry but I have nothing 2 talk with u
If you're a man, show what u have with all ya force
Are u ready? let's start it's not a game, ya know
C' mon and show me everything u have)

Just one spark will bring the fear
And... isshokusokuhatsu no yoru
Nothing can kill the way to love
(Konomama hike ru hodo I'm not adult)
Just one trigger can start a war
And...'shoudou'gekijou' uzumaki ita
No one can lose the faith in love
(Real fighter ha? break it down ha?0
Negai hakanaki ai wa
They make it harder

**lucky enough if this song play during the drop by .. but if not u guys may click manually below

Suki Vs Silh-oe

**Like Vs Hate

Atashiwa:
1. My Family
2. My Tatsuya

3.KAT-TUN
4.Hana..Sakura..Cherryblossom

5. Snow @ Yuki

6.KDrama and JDrama

7.JE boys
8.Cute things
9.ColourShiro + Murasaki

10.Him *i guess*
11.Sushi

12.Tomodachi~
13.Sleep
14.A.N Jell

15.Jang Geun Suk

16.Lee Hong Ki

17.FT Island

18. Marshmallow

19. KPop
20....
.........
100. I MYSELF
**credit pic to A.N Jell FB~

Silh-oe:
1. Dark

2. Storm

3. Scary Movie
4. Violent Movie
5. Soya and Winter Melon
6. KY
7. Guys without common sense
8. Liar
9. People who talk bad bout others
10. Negative people
11. Life without internet
12. Smelly

13.Peas <--make me sick. if the food has it it TOTALLY OUT!!
....
.....
100. I HATE TO BE LEFT ALONE i can cry all day long if i was

A fact that U guys should know about me~

I am a person with 'that'type of complex mind.. Let me explain..

1) if i already set something in my mind must be exactly like that because i cant accept it if it does not.waking me up exactly a few min before my alarm ring is totally piss me off.. i understand the deed u trying to do but it just 2.30pm not 4.00p.m yet and i know i didn't pray that why i set the alarm..tq but no thanks...but if it was already by 3, i understand~

2)i forget things easily but i can remember things gradually.believe it or not up 2 u guys~

3)i am lot of patient but I'm also a short temper.i can consider things sometime but not always~

4)i meant what i said but i didnt meant what i said.dunno how to explain this~

5)i do unconscious action.sometimes i realize i bought unnecessary things without realizing its me buying it~

6)i may unconsciously do the thing that i suppose to do.dunno how to explain this~

7)i still confuse about my feeling event i hardly think bout it

8)i can be a positive thinker too positive but when it come to negative it totally negative.thinking positive is goo but sometime it should be negative~

9)i am crazy but my mind still working.i do crazy thing that i thing is not crazy~

10)i do have my childish part coz being an adult is painful.thinking like an adult makes me down especially when i come to love~

I also cry unconsciously. I've once cry in front of the senior when got scold.sounds like I'm weak but it just the tears that flow WITHOUT my permission~so shy~baka tear that dunno the right moment to go out~

**what i'm trying to say is, me handling this complex mind is complex is hard, dunno make me more complex coz i'll be crazy..
**I HATE PEOPLE MOST WHEN THEY TRY TO INVOLVE IN MY PRIVATE LIFE WITHOUT LIMIT!!!!