Shiawase~

having a bite of joy in the miserable state... well... still in the pressure phase but i manage to take a step out for a moment~ yatta.. my dream perfume..tell ya that I AM CRAZY OVER SAKURA~ a few week ago, when i drop by at the body shop n i notice one new series product of SAKURA... and craving for that in then.. saving up the duit raya  and i manage to have it TODAY~~ dozou.. my piece of happiness in the depress week..

**wish that i will always have that piece of happiness in my miserable week~

Kanashimi~

the mood swing.. i really need time and space for myself... i'm reaching my limit.. really want to cry as hard as i could..the environment is a pressure..the assignment is a pressure..the team work is pressure..tomodachi mo, a pressure..love is a pressure..everything is a pressure... wish to disappear for a second.. totally depress week.. more depression is coming.. the mid-sem, quizaz and presentation.. will i able to cope with all of this..? i need support.. yet no one here.. no one to share about.. minna is busy with their life... theres no one to blame for that of course...kanashimi..hontoni.. demo ne, yakusoku is promise after all... 

I'm good but I'm not that great but still i'm trying my best surviving in this world hitori! 

I'm alone but m trusting people surround me. they are not here but i know they are with me~ Struggling for survival even its painful and stressful!

patient!

am I patient enough? almost the limit... everything seems piss me off... watch out for the next week cause I MIGHT BLOW!

am I grateful enough?

.no emojie post.


ohayo!! yosh!!yosh!! genki day!!! perhaps? hehe~~

Firstly: Aliya Dalila Ruslan and Nurhazwani Mohd Zain

~for both of you, Good Luck!!!! Please Take Care of yourself well at others country and be back in a piece and with success... Aya... its really sad since we didn't make it.. huhu.. demo ne, I'm gonna miss you lots... Take care yer~~~

*back to the topic*

AM I GRATEFUL ENOUGH??

the things that keep wondering in my mind since this morning... am i grateful enough to be here? am i grateful enough to stay alive? am i grateful enough with my life?

well, the answer is 'I am grateful but it is not enough'... it is true that i envy those who gonna further their study outside but Alhamdullilah for what I've obtain today.. I have a place to study, to stay, to eat and friends to enjoy with but in a same time i just want to struggle to have a better stat for me and for my family... and in away to do that i really need to benkyo... a good friend will absolutely understand me why sometimes i put my fandom zone aside.. so please understand me.. putting them aside doesn't mean that i'm not care it just the study need more attention..

I am grateful with my life yet i'm doing my best to put it on a better state~ *peace*

--haha!! this seems like nonsense talk ne~ hehe~

Ureshi!!

nothing much it just I AM SOoo HAPPY...

URESHiii!!!

for all thing happen yesterday and a day before that its totally make me happy plus, since tomorrow is Eid so:

a day before i got No More Pain Limited Edition!! tq to Izzati~ and yesterday is....himitsu~ shhhhh~~ let's the secret remain in the heart~
**yesteday this blog find its 1582 visitors and its me... hehe... but I miss place the SC... *sigh*

.pain.love.life.drama.happiness.

No LOVE No PAIN, No PAIN No GAIN...but do people LIVE w/o LOVE?? My question, You answer...

Holidays is here.. but yet, i haven't enter my FANDOM ZONE.. huhu... the network is just limited, so the internet excess is limited... the work is pile up.. with the home chaos which I'm not involve too much due to laziness..yeah.. I admit that I am that lazy.. XDD~~

LIST OF ASSIGNMENT TO BE DONE

1. Post Harvest Product
2. Material Science Presentation Script (do the script and memorize)
3. Post Harvest Group Presentation (ah.. forget the title already)
4. English (workshop presentation)
5. STUDY... there is 2 Quiz and 2 MID-Sem exam


Well, the holidays start... but I'm just to heavy to start any task.. plus, my Photoshop is not working ..so.. i cant do the design task for the post harvest product.. sigh.. uh.. better start the input 1st.. well.. counting the day to raya..~~

RAYA is NEAR.. but still the aura didnt come yet.. ..I wonder how this year RAYA gonna be.. its the very first RAYA w/o granny and granpa~

Recently I'm done watching PERSONAL TASTE~ hehe.. LEE MIN HO.. up to the list... 2nd rank on my favourite K-drama actor.. .. he is just TALL.. hehe..

Basically most of us wish to have sweet love story.. same goes here.. but it never become real because in real life people doesn't always act the way we hope them to be.. but still... life is unscripted drama.. enjoy it well..So, with the love that you own, LOVE the one well~

**Oh! Dear Valuable UMK student.. hehe DEAR SBP only meh... hehe.. I guess, I'm just gonna bring my handmade choco keaki only.. hehe... i hope it will be good like last time... yosh.. enjoy the holiday~~

LIFE is full of LOVE.. It can be DRAMAtic but not scripted... Its fills with HAPPINESS and joy... seems to be PAINful sometimes but "there always be rainbow

after rain in a sunny day"

MHMA...To you maybe I seems like someone who are flirting with you.. but for me, i just want us to get better... But the still, the answer is yours..i wont force becoz i know you are reading my text even u didnt reply..i'm satisfy with that.. tomodachi?

When You Are Down~~

When U are down make it feel great... just SMILE... RE-EVALUATING...and have a NICE WAY OF THINKING... be POSITIVE... LOOK OUT the matter PROPERLY with BETTER SET OF MIND...and NEVER STOP HOPING for the best..

Things will be better sooner or later~ (= ~ Shinjiru!!

**prepare yourself well before putting your heart on to someone~ ok?

Itadaikimas!!!

TAKOYAKI KITA!!!!

Finaly... Yey.. Hehehe!!! its been a month since I'm craving for TAKOYAKI!!!!... huhuhu... finally i got it last Thusday at tesco... the only place with takoyaki here... even it is not as good as the one i used to eat, demo... I'm satisfied! un~un... Oishii!!!!!! yosh... grab some sushi too... haha... breaking fast with takoball and sushi!!!

My Takoball and Sushi!!! ^^

 **sigh... i dont really understand the blogger today... the new format drives me crazy!! **Sigh**

One after another

one exam is done and others is waiting... ayark... material science... matte ne... i'll read you in a bit... nyiahahah!!

SME... as for me it was not that hard it just hard to be really confident with the ans... plus its need strong memory but mine is not... adeyy~~~

i didn't have proper sleep last night... ..i guess this night too... why there must be a paper after one another... um.. but i guess its better the exam was done before the Eid-Ul-Fitr holiday... At least i can really enjoy the holiday...

counting the moment to shout TADAIMA!!!!!! fuh.. fuh...5 days to go

**just now i'm on the wrong bus... the bus full of senior..*sigh*

a question... what do you think of a people who always have negative way of thinking or complex way of thinking which mean by one that think thing to be in difficult way~

Facing such people need adaptation.. adapt them the way they adapt you.. huhu.. for Miss Negative thinker, stop being negative cause that piss me off, ok?

Iyaah!!! Hasashiburi Bloggy-chan!!

Yeah! I miss this blog.. its 26 August already... ayark!! I guess this month is the least number of post that i made per month...Adey~~~ huhu.. well... lots of stuff happen...

Firstly...
..haha.. promise is a promise...its hentai lecture... maa... dunno what to say it just... WHY TODAY LECTURE IS SOO HENTAI FOR BOTH SUBJECT?? (last 2 week incident ok...XDD)... I'm sOoO don't understand why is that so.. well all the example today have "hentai" element... Hadoi!! May i remind you to give more proper example next time, ok?
**the story become short since i forget what exactly happen.. nyiahahah!!--evil laugh

Secondly..

Well.. TEAMWORK and GROUPING.. how much did you like those thing??.. Maa... I'm not saying that I'm good in those but i really hate when this happen in grouping:

1. Treating you are great and others like baka...This kind of people PLEASE knock you head and cut it out before i knock and cut you!!!

2. When others is objecting and opposing idea...the member will say, "Oh! since you are saying it why don't you do it.. i dont know since its your idea"...WHAT THE IKANbetoi la!!.. ..well, its teamie work... TOGETHER OKEY!! even your idea is rejected..

3. "Asal ada sudah"... This quote I hate the most.... A JOB MUST BE DONE IN A QUALITY!!!

... Since we cannot change people, JUST FOLLOW THE FLOW~... Follow the flow well like an excellent not like a stupid cow with ring on it nose.. hahaha!!!

Thirdly...

Tomodachi..... hehe... again.. well, i feel like i'm surviving here alone.. well, i know there is lots of people around me but still sabishi ne~... i feel like some is being friend because we have to be not because we want to be.. i can feel that... lately, from my observation, i also can see that people always put blame other because of what others have done but they never see what they have done to others.. ..actually, a thing that i wanna say is, we are the same but we just dont realize it..

admit it dear, don't be angry any longer... unless u are that hard so you wont admit and wont try to see... sigh.. My deary friend.. I LOVE YOU GUYS NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU GUYS HATE ME..

Fourthly...

CRAVING FOR TAKOYAKI!!!!!

Fifthly...

I'm SOMEONE WHO REALLY LOVE SAKURA!!!!

SUTEKI NO HANA!!!

Finally..

the P.A system... haha... not that audio system and also not Private Assistant.. it is "Penasihat Akademik" or "Academic Advisor"... refreshing back to the early SEM i notice that this sem PA wasn't like before in which each class got the same PA... BIGGG SIGH at first... Second BIGGG SIGH when i saw the name of my P.A is kind of old man name and overseas.. ops... gomen ne P.A... it just 1st impression.. then, i look out at the portal to search a little about my PA.... gomen again because i'm ******** at you pic... can help too... maaa...early guys adolescence face you know... i did the same thing we i see my classmate matric card... hehe... gomen...gomen...*bow* *bow* ..no offend... hehe.. then we got the registration slip in which will be the excuse for us to meet out PA.. hahaha..

kitaa~~ i met him after the class... DONT JUDGE A BOOK FROM ITS COVER.. hehe...

HE IS JUST NICE no old man feeling and he is not that old..almost the same age of my brother.. haha... wish to say that but i dont have brother...hehe... thats my comment when the first time we met......haha...and when it is 2nd time.. doesn't he look like arrogant? he did not even smile when we met at faculty... adey... hehe... but think positive, he can't recognize you in one meeting la cik earissa oi!!! haha...

SUDDEN PLAN!! we got a form that need to be fill for the whole sem which involve the meeting with P.A...BIGGEST SIGH...i remember his word when we first met.."at least kene jumpe sekali" now the statement need to be drop... its 24 times... argh.. killers..
last week Wed, i met him.. assume it to be 1st time for the form... haha... i cant help from laughing whele talking... Gomen ne Sir.... It just i cant help from laughing to overcome my nervousness... adey... and thanks for the advice and the hadis... 2nd meeting, we come in a group and we take a turn.. well, this time i really have no comment.. but i wanna comment, why is my comment in the form wasn't be fill but other is.. huhu... i wonder.... sir, anything just be straight ok? and thanks also for 2nd meeting advice.. i'll take note of it okey ~~~ ^^~ see u soon~ jya~

Holiday KITAA!!! demo EXAM KITAA mo!!!Hadey~~~ huhu....

~**~Weeks pass just fine it just i dont have time to give myself a break and enjoy.. i guess i really gonna slow down taking note about them until my final.. huhu.. dear P.A i hope we can enjoy the SEM together.. Sometime i'm no good in face to face, but i always trying my best because IT IS ME!! daijoubu... i know my target and I'm working on it OK? dean, KITAA!!!!

**kitaa=here

***i guess I'll talk more about my P.A soon.. wait yer~~ ^^
**** n i guess i laugh too much~ "jgn ketawa bnyk sgt, nt mati" --PA advice!! ^^

Update!!

Ah! I really have to keep surving in this SEM.. i just get a little time for them on the net per day... SHOULD UPDATE BLOGGY TODAY.. demo~~~ *sigh*.. just wait for the long entry on weekend ye... i'll tell you about Hentai Lecture... HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!... sore dake... jya~~~

Weekly Complextion!

oh! Gonna be long entry... Weekly update i guess~

1. MR's Issue~
regarding about my previous post about the MR. issue... choo ureshii... Everything seems so well this week.....
~Mr. AJ.. still.. let him be... and my wish...Good Luck!!
~Mr. M.. We are really getting better... ^^...seems like nothing ever happen..
~Mr. AM.. well he was just nice actually.. maybe last time is fitting moment~
~Mr. KY.. he already accept my apology.. so its fine.. except he is still KY
...and...
~ HIM... choooo ureshi....... previously i wad damn tired staying up till 3 am.. suddenly, i feel like texting him when I'm about to sleep since I'm taking my 'Abe' in my arm... oh! its his final years... so its must be thought.. and.... got a reply.. even it just.."nite.." should I be super happy about this? hehe..

2.MISS SUPERWHATEVER..
**reminder: this is my blog so its truly MINE!
She is sooo whatever lah!... i do not hate her ...it just she is being SUPER ANNOYED! She is super hesitate...super negative thinker.. super talking bad about other... she always in doubt bout others.. sometimes....ops.. its not sometimes..she always lost her mirror...but just have it sometimes...she is super "KEREK" having that super seniority feeling... hello! wake up please... if we are in the 4th year i really dun care that feeling... but it just 2nd year... dont get full 0f yourself.. that worst part is.. thinking that you are SUPER KIREI and others is not.. well... every girls want to look best in public.. but you just to keep that feeling to yourself la~ no need to make others says " wa... you are soo pretty.." Frankly la... girls rarely says that to others.... but me, i just spill it out about how i feel bout other.. well... my FRANKNESS is FREAKY to me.. adoy.. btw.. I didn't have right to say much bad about her.. I'm not that good enough... but stating this here is such a relive.. ahhh~~ yokatta!!!

3. yosh.. the busy week make me put Otish on my bag.. hehe~~~ The super cuteness make me a little release in a tens class~~ hahaha!!

4.my bestie.... hehe.. he is in mesir rite now.. huhu.. um... is a little sad when u say you cant go back this year.. demo.. daijoubu... hope you are doing super fine there.. yeah... always supporting you....sorry.. lately i was late replying your fb text.. hehe.. you might be not mind of that but its my routine to atleast say something to you~ ....huhu... previously it like monthly basis to cll you evry month once but since you are not here.. that number is no use.. plus.. since haven't topping up for a long time it wasnt mine already..the number.. *sigh*
**i really appreciate this person.. he always comfort me in his way..he makes me to be a person to think from various point if i'm in trouble or being piss of of someone.. i use to be a person that really depress with all the people around be..note:used to ok not now... but having a way of thinking makes my life better.. still can enjoy the wave of life in depression.. hahaha...

5.TOMODACHI! well the important person when you are in hostel.. rite... the way of friendship goes is always your way.. which means... if you want a friendship... seek for it.. not just hoping for attention.. well.. as i say before.. in friendship its always go like your way.. it doesnot mean to be sticking 24/7... its about give and take...never tired giving and never hope to take...its comes naturally ok?.... well.. its my way... people that hate me or dislike... however you guys still my friend... we have something to do with each other.. that why we are still friend...anything? you guys may straightly ask me ok? i'm saying this coz i used to have serious friendship complexion years ago~

6. Ueda Solo is starting soon... so does KAT-TUN tour... gomen.. I'm choo busy so got really limited space for you guys... for those who keep updating me... tq soo much~~ LOVE MINNA!!

7. BENKYOU... itaii!!!.. Tough SEM!! ...really!! i'll detail the story soon or later...

off for now~

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